January 2019 – Rocket Girl Writes

January Wrap Up: Cuddling, Cold, and Cute Dildos

Let’s kill this cold month and get outta here y’all, it literally feels like January 78th. I’m tired of it being freezing and also January. One of these things will happen, though I don’t anticipate it getting any warmer soon! So what have I been up to…

Partnered Life

My partner and I are incorporating Deep Pressure Therapy into our cuddling and physical intimacy. My partner and I have been under a lot of stress this month regarding employment and making big life changes in the coming future. After reading about deep pressure therapy, we tried it the low cost way. By which I mean, I laid on top of my partner like a 105 lb. girl shaped blanket for a half hour. The combination of skin to skin contact and pressure was incredibly soothing. We switch off being each other’s human blankets and it’s a great low effort form of intimacy. It’s perfect for when you want to be physically intimate with your partner but one or both of you isn’t in a good head space for sex (or perhaps, one or both of you just doesn’t want to have sex).

We’ve started watching Freeman’s Mind, a YouTube series that’s about what goes on in Dr. Freeman’s mind as he fights his way out of Black Mesa. Confession: I’ve never played Half Life. But I still really enjoy this YouTube series. It’s tightly written, comically violent and very irreverent. It’s sort of my go to brain popcorn when I’m with my partner. Many are the evenings where we both crawl onto the couch and feel beat up, so putting on Freeman’s Mind and clapping along to the intro is something that makes us both feel relaxed.

Earlier this month I bought and played a board game called Betrayal at the House on the Hill. My boyfriend and I love boardgames so fucking much. I bought this at Hobbytown over the holidays and we both love it to death. We only wish we could get our other friends to play it with us. I like that it functions like DnD lite and is slightly more accessible. It takes up to six people to play, has 50 scenarios, and it spooky enough for my horror inclined tastes.

Health and Wellness

In the best interest of my body, I’ve started eating more regularly and being more mindful of my health. I have a breakfast menu now which is essentially just: oatmeal with granola, a cup of coffee and a banana with chunky peanut butter. It’s inexpensive, decently healthy and filling. Great for recovering all the weight I lost over the holidays!

I’ve also started a nightly ritual that includes journaling, closing down all my screens, drinking two glasses of water and meditating. I haven’t been keeping it up every night, but I’ve noticed that I’m starting to fall asleep earlier! Success!

Maybe it’s from watching Jenna Marbles, maybe it’s from all the articles about how harmful the meat industry is, but I’ve been sort of gravitating to vegetarian/vegan food options. I’ve also noticed that it’s less expensive in a lot of ways and that you can make big batches of food and just eat off that for a week. I like that a lot. I also liked the vegan dumplings I had just the other day. FUCK THEY WERE GOOD.

Possibly because of stress (almost certainly because of stress), I’ve lost a lot of flirty energy in my life. Most of my texts have been some variation of ‘wanna cuddle?’. Which is perfectly valid, but I miss the teasing, exciting nature of flirtation. I wanna freshen up my flirting landscape

Turn ons and Toys

This month was stressful, but there were still some sexy aspects to it. This month has included a bunch of stuff like…

I’ve been super into dildos with foreskin lately. Something about the foreskin just is such a turn on, especially if the dildo is already girthy. I’ve been eyeing the Changeling from Hodgepodge Entourage (I won a dildo from them, the Sylph model). I also like the look of the Leviathan from Dread The Empire.

Nipple clamps are something I love aesthetically but historically haven’t enjoyed when they’re on my physical body. I have been trying so hard to like the nipple clamps I got from Tantus a while back. They still hurt so fucking bad.

This month I got sent a realistic dildo (review to come!) and I immediately tried it in my harness. Wearing a realistic dildo in my harness and jacking off in the mirror was both hot and an out of body experience. I really did wanna fuck that girl in the mirror.

I also discovered how intense my come fetish is. Know it’s a fantasy, but the idea of being absolutely showered in semen is super hot for me. I’m thinking of writing some erotica around it. Or maybe a Cryptokink since I don’t see anyone talking about the inflation fetish.

Mini-vibes have saved my masturbating life. With the Tri-It or the Exposed Nocturnal pressed against my clit, I can get off without a whole lot of effort. Also the controls are fucking great on these and I can easily adjust the intensity, perfect for trawling for pornographic fanfiction.

When my boyfriend and I DID have sex, we used the Butters as lube. Partially because it’s a great lube and partially because it was the easiest lube to access. It was on the nightstand while the Sliquid was in the drawer and my boyfriend couldn’t be bothered to open a drawer. Not that I’m complaining, I fucking love the Butters.

Miscellaneous

Frying vegan dumplings for the first time. Filling the bird feeder. Spending lots of time cuddling with my boyfriend. Watching Sex Education. Playing dumb card games in a tent in the freezing cold. Recovering from trauma. Putting on eye and cheek glitter to feel more human. Buying cute underwear. Making Valentine’s Day plans. Walking to a donut shop. Working out for the first time in a while. Sending ab pics.

Reviews

Femme Fun Ultra Bullet Review

The Femme Fun Ultra Bullet is undeniably cute. A fat bullet covered in adorably bright turquoise silicone with a bright pink button? Probably one of the most aesthetically pleasing designs I’ve seen in a while. It puts me in mind of Easter eggs that you might find in the grass and it makes me ache for warmer spring weather. The Femme Fun bullet caught my eye more as I looked for alternatives to the Tango, and while I’ve certainly found alternatives, I never really stopped being enamored of the clean, cute design of the Ultra Bullet. So you can imagine my delight when SheVibe allowed me to review it! Of course, I should know more than anyone that looks can be deceiving, because this bullet isn’t what I hoped for.

femme fun ultra bullet product photo — The Femme Fun Ultra Bullet really makes me think of spring.

When I said the bullet was fat, I suppose technically I wasn’t correct. Looking now at the measurements of the bullet, the widest part is only .91 inches thick, smaller than most thin dildos. I suppose the roundness of the design is what imparts a sense of chunkiness to the bullet, as well its fat base. The Femme Fun Ultra Bullet is fully waterproof, which I dutifully tested during a hot bubble bath. It buzzed away faithfully without complaint as I lounged in my tub, providing a pleasingly decadent orgasm. The bullet also claims to have 20 functions, which I dutifully counted, and the ad copy is correct. It has a fine battery life and operates via the single large button on the bottom. To turn it on, you press and hold the button, and to change settings you click the button briefly. All fairly standard and simple, though the inability to go back to a favored setting is especially annoying with the Femme Fun Ultra Bullet. You must cycle through all of the other functions to get back, which is very tedious considering there are so many settings. The memory function is also odd, because if I click off the vibe on my finishing speed (usually the highest steady speed) then the vibe tries to be helpful by starting me off on that speed when I turn it on again. This can make using the vibrator sort of awkward because when I click on the vibe, I expect a nice low speed and am instead assaulted with the highest steady one. After I click the vibrator once though, the vibrator goes back to the first steady speed and progresses normally.

The controls are really what make the Femme Fun a let down for me. Well, that and that there are only three steady speeds. Yes, the Femme Fun Ultra Bullet does have 20 functions as promised! 17 OF THOSE ARE PATTERNS. Epiphora asked her readers and the results are in: patterns are not what make us come. No one praises the Tango for its patterns, and they are not the feature of the Nocturnal. My clit feels sort of battered from all directions when experiencing a lot of the patterns. This, combined with the fact that I must experience them in order to get to my favored settings irritates me to no end.

Perhaps I would be less salty about there being only three steady speeds if I were able to navigate them more easily. Because quite honestly, the steady speeds are lovely! The low one is perfect to stir arousal, and is therefore great for when I’m reading erotica and having a long session. The second and third speeds are pleasingly rumbly and strong and are surface level and all of those other buzz words which generally mean I get to orgasm. Even my boyfriend enjoyed vibrations of this quality, as he agreed to test it by putting it (partially) in his ass. He said it felt really interesting and pleasurable as he slid it in, and I couldn’t help but feel a little hornier watching him like that…anyway. If I could navigate through these three speeds then I’d feel a lot better using the Femme Fun Ultra Bullet, and I’d feel even better if there were a greater range of steady speeds.

The Femme Fun is charmingly designed, strong, rumbly and rechargeable. If that was all that mattered, then I’d be hawking it to you at the top of my voice. But the controls of the vibrator make me WINCE. Furiously clicking through the patterns so I can drop the vibrator down to a lower steady speed is frustrating, and I can’t even reset by turning it off because the memory function will start me wherever I stopped. If I were to remake this vibe, I would hack off a good chunk of the patterns, increase the range of steady speeds and make it more navigable. Since I can’t, I’ll point you to my preferred clit vibe at the moment, the Exposed Nocturnal which I reviewed here. No it’s not as cute and it doesn’t come in turquoise, but it doesn’t force me to experience patterns and it has 5 steady speeds.

This product was provided to me free of charge in exchange for my honest review. Thanks SheVibe!

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Sex Blogger Collaboration Ideas 2019

Strap On Make Over: You know in those chick flicks where our (usually female) protagonist goes to the mall and tries on a bunch of different looks and walks the catwalk? I want that but with a variety of strap ons and dildos. I want a strap on fashion goddammit. I want lots of cute people trying on new looks! Bonus points if you come up with a name/aesthetic theme for your look!
Dildo Telephone: Or sex toy telephone. Someone sketches a picture of a sex toy. Then passes it off to the next person who re-interprets the sketches and passes it to the next person down the line. NATURALLY no one sees anything other than the toy they are supposed to re-interpret. LET’S SEE HOW WEIRD LOOKING IT GETS.
Blog Switch: Pretend to be another blogger! Ex: Kitten Boheme attempts to write as Phallophile Reviews, Phallophile might review as Backwoods Bedroom and so on. Readers are invited to guess who’s who!
Blind Swap: Exactly what it says on the tin: box up a toy and send it to your chosen reviewer, and no one gets to know what it is other than a vague hint! This would be limited to dils, vibes and plugs cause clothing swap would be a bit complicated!
Photo Finish: A theme is announced and everyone has to interpret that theme via photography! The theme will be really vague and non specific like a collection of words ex: ‘midnight, neon, sleazy’ or a sufficiently vague phrase: ‘A cold morning in April’. Post em up and lets see what everyone came up with!

Cryptokink

Cryptokink: Vore

Swallow your fears everyone, it’s time we took a deep dive into one of the most talked about kinks on the internet: vore.

Voraphilia, or colloquially known as vore, has become one of the most popular niche kinks on the internet. I write this with a grin…popular niche kink is just the sort of oxymoron that WOULD happen on my blog. Anyway, the point is that some people have developed a sexual fetish entirely around being eaten.

No, not like cannibalism. Well usually not. I’m sure there’s someone out there who thinks being cut up and eaten like the victim of a serial killer is hot, and that’s for them to deal with as they see fit. But these types of individuals wouldn’t really fall into the vore fetish. They’d fall more into the guro category but I digress.

Vore can be divided into two spectrums or axes. There is hard vore, which depicts chewing and thus gore and occasionally the death of the entity being vored. Soft vore differs in that it is often depicted as swallowing the vored entity whole and alive. Often times hard vore is considered fatal, while soft vore is sort of the person or entity just hanging out in consumer’s body for a while before being ejected unharmed. Then there is the second axis of willing and unwilling, which is how the entity being vored reacts to the situation. Some vore scenes are depicted as violent and unwanted, with the vored person actively trying to escape being swallowed, while naturally the willing scenes have the person being vored damn near jumping down someone’s throat.

With vore defined, I’m going to focus mainly on why people find soft vore attractive. In a later post I’ll talk about hard vore and guro and similar edgy kinks, but that’s for later. For now, I think soft vore is absolutely fascinating. There are certain elements that I think a soft vore scene shares with oh…something like wax play or massages. There’s not any special focus on genitals, and often the sensation that’s achieved (in the scene) is not an orgasm but a sense of satisfaction. In some scenes, the vore top or predator is seen to sexually enjoy consuming the vore bottom or prey and masturbates themselves to completion upon swallowing the prey, but there are just as many scenes where they roll over and take a nap.

The main draw for soft vore appears to be intense vulnerability and intimacy combined with something akin to a mouth and or a belly fetish. I think this type of vulnerability sort of forces people to relax by taking away all other options. I mean, you’ve been eaten, of course you’ve got no control. But you’re forced into a place that is ultimately worry free and very protected. I don’t think it’s TOO MUCH of a stretch to say that vore both occupies a taboo and a comforting place in the psyches of people who indulge in it as a fantasy. I imagine it as being similar to an anxious submissive who finds a deep comfort in being tied up. They are fully trusting their dominant to take care of them and can therefore get into a very relaxed headspace when someone they trust binds their limbs.

Now, as you might be thinking, vore pretty much can’t be experienced in real life. Humans do not exist that can other adult humans whole and all sort of puts a damper on acting out this fantasy. Vore can somewhat be simulated by perhaps making small prey shaped confections, and then filmed as a kind of vore pornography, but that’s not where vore enthusiasts are most prevalent. Vore thrives as a roleplaying scenario and as erotica in both visual and text mediums. Going on literotica and searching the term vore will bring up hundreds of stories about all kinds of vore and its various derivations. Sub reddits exist for this fetish and a cursory google search brings to light how popular this has become with people online. Photo manipulations of beautiful women holding men before their mouths exist as well as extremely dirty furry erotica in which blue foxes are swallowed whole by the dashing tiger predators. Vore seems to be having it’s heyday in both the human and furry community alike!

For the most part, it seems like vore is a strange if largely harmless kink that appeals to people’s desire to be comforted and dominated. This style of domination is just a bit more…physical? At any rate, if this post aroused any feelings for you, know that you’re far from alone and that there’s a thriving community waiting to eat you. Well, meet you. Both? Sorry I couldn’t resist a dumb joke.

Reviews

Lumberjill Cinder Review

The world of wood dildos is pretty small and also fairly expensive. One of the models held in critical acclaim will run you approximately $145 on an average day without sales. It was for this reason that I had resigned myself to a wood-less existence. Well, that was until RGN Toys put out the call for reviewers to put a new, affordable wood dildo model to the test. Never one to turn down a new masturbation experience, I gamely put myself forward and was accepted! Mere days later, I welcomed into my house and my vagina the adorable Cinder dildo.

cinder product photo — The Cinder looking charming

The Cinder is a petite dildo, or is at least considering my vagina’s proclivities. At six inches long and 1.5 inches thick at the girthiest, the Cinder sits comfortably at the average end of the dildo spectrum. When I showed my boyfriend and friends the new toy I got, the most common remark was how much it looked like a bowling pin. I confess, it kind of does and it makes me giggle. While it’s not exactly a discreet toy, you have to wonder if anyone would think more than an unusually shaped paperweight. Sitting on a coffee table next to a book, someone might think it merely a piece of decorative sculpture. Honestly, the Cinder is giving me ideas for incorporating stealthy pieces of erotica into my home décor!

With the Cinder being so petite, it’s no surprise that my size captain vagina wasn’t floored. What I didn’t expect was that my vagina would be able to swallow the Cinder whole…yeah, constrictor snake style. When I stood up and realized that the dildo didn’t fall out of me though, that was when the fun really started. Cue Liz strutting around her apartment, gripping the Cinder like a vice. Apart from the size though, I found the shape of the Cinder to be delightful though. The firm, insistent pressure on my G spot from the knobbed end of the Cinder felt lovely in conjunction with a strong clitoral vibrator. The tapered torpedo like end was considerably less pleasurable, so I recommend using that bit as a handle to pound yourself with. Hell, the knobbed end was so good that I lost myself in a masturbation frenzy one evening.

However, this was to the detriment of my sheets, as I had forgotten two things: 1) that I was menstruating and 2) that I hadn’t put down a towel. When I spotted my ruined bedding, my vagina ejected the Cinder in fear and more blood oozed out of me. Blood was fucking everywhere, running down my legs and splodged all over the bedspread. I was struggling not to scream and cuss as I hustled my bare ass to the laundry room with my soiled duvet in arms. And thus, the Cinder burned me, for I flew too close to the sun that is masturbating on your period.

Blood bath aside, the Cinder has been an exciting experience. Wood does feel different than the silicone and steel and glass that I’ve tried in that it is both light and firm, but it doesn’t necessarily feel warmer as Lumberjill claims. It’s about the same temperature as silicone, which is room temperature. Compared to steel though, I suppose this claim has some credit, because my Pure Wand is always FRIGID.

Cleaning the toy was also interesting, as there are no sanitising instructions on my care and cleaning manual. According to Richard Carver, the man behind the art of Lumberjill, there currently isn’t a way to sanitise the toy. However, the toy is still non-porous due to the finish. When I asked what should be done if the finish were to be damaged, Richard told me that contacting him on Etsy would work so that the toy could be shipped to him for repair, repaired at home per his instructions, or replacing the toy depending on the damage. This kind of comprehensive care for dildos, especially ones so affordable is kind of mind boggling.

Final thoughts? The Cinder is an amazingly affordable (just $30 at RGN!!) wood dildo that feels good, even though it is somewhat underwhelming in the size department. I highly recommend this for people who would like to experience luxury on a budget and who know that they enjoy: 1) firm pressure on internal erogenous zones and 2) prefer smaller toys. Also you can rest easy knowing that should your toy become damaged that Lumberjill will look after you!

This product was sent to me free of charge in exchange for my honest review. Thanks RGN Toys!

Reviews

Uberrime Splendid Review

There exists many different kinds of toys. There are the sucky ones, sure, and those are fun to write scathing reviews about and that you can gleefully bin once you don’t have to test the fucker anymore. Good toys are another category, the ones that make you sigh in relief as you reach for them to end a masturbation session made frustrating by the aforementioned shitty toys. Niche toys fulfill a certain need that you may not always have, like a particularly textured dildo or a VERY strong vibrator.

And then there are toys that rise above the rest as the very best of toys. They require little warm up, are nearly effortless in use, extremely versatile and, if you’re lucky, they’re also beautiful. Some contenders include: The We Vibe Tango, The VixSkin Mustang, The Lelo Mona and now…the Uberrime Splendid, which I dub the champagne of dildos.

splendid product photo — The Splendid looking lovely in the snow.

The Splendid is a toy that I believe will rightly join the ranks of these acclaimed toys. It is beautiful, pleasurable, effortless and versatile. It makes for hours long sessions of masturbation that soak my bed spreads and rob me of my full mobility after I’ve had ten orgasms consecutively. And I want to tell you all about it.

At 5 and half inches insertable and a maximum diameter of 1.67 inches, the Splendid sits solidly within the range of the average dildo user’s capacity. People looking for a slightly smaller toy might be disappointed by the dimensions, but I think it’s a fairly accessible size. The Splendid is a loose interpretation of a penis, with a bulbous head and prominent veins. But the gorgeous marbled color and chunkiness mean that it walks the line between fantasy and realism like a seasoned acrobat walking the tightrope; by which I mean it looks FANTASTIC. There’s a sort of cheeriness in the design that puts a smile on my face every time I look at it.

And while I am overjoyed to simply stop and stare at this magnificent dildo, the feeling of it inside my vag is what prompted me to write this review. The veins are prominent and easily felt as I push the Splendid inside of me. The manageable dimensions make this a dildo for all seasons, and I’ve used it when I’m on my period and when I’m bleed free all to the same result: simple and strong orgasms. Sliding it in is tactile heaven, with the closest comparison being lying down on a massage table and being worked over by strong and skillful hands. That bulbous squishy head nudges itself insistently against my G-spot, making clenching feel comfortably and eye-rollingly pleasurable. Thrusting, clenching, twirling and nudging the toy are all viable methods for pushing the Splendid’s gorgeously soft head against all the right internal spots.

The softness of the dildo is divine. Dual density is an amazing quality, and Uberrime NAILED IT. It’s soft enough to be gentle but has the firmness to stand up to my vagina. It’s squishier than The Maestro, a cousin of the Splendid’s, but still quite firm enough to do the job. I don’t know how Uberrime can make all of these silicone densities so goddamn delicious, but they do and I appreciate it. I want to stuff myself with the Splendid for hours at a time. The Splendid gives me an orgasm that makes me feel perfectly content and at peace with the world; it’s as if we solidified the feeling of curling up near a fire with a mug of cocoa while it’s snowing outside into a sculpture and then made that solid sculpture fuckable. It’s a truly AMAZING dildo and one that holds a place of honor in my nightstand.

Much has been said about the Splendid. The Big Gay Review rated the Splendid a perfect 10, Felicity of Phallophile Reviews loves it, and Epiphora loved it so much that she had a line of Splendids done up in her signature sea green color. This dildo has received something of a royal welcome in the reviewing community, praised by people of all pronouns for its delightful squish and pleasantly sized dimensions. I’m proud to be among one of the reviewers in christening this sex toy as the cream of the crop. Here’s to you Splendid, you beautiful squishy bastard! May you grace many more holes than mine!

This product was sent to me free of charge in exchange for my honest review. Thanks Uberrime!

Reviews

Screaming O Tri-It Review

Countess Kassandra is a well known blogger whom I DEEPLY respect. She writes wonderful reviews (CHECK OUT HER REVIEW OF THE ELEMENT THREE. She wrote about pegging her husband in such a beautiful way) and is now running her own shop, the Erotique! This on it’s own is delightful, I think reviewers owning shops that they stock with verifiably good toys is a great way to bring in more body safe toys and push out shitty and toxic toys. But when she offered me a chance to review for her Erotique, I couldn’t leap on the chance fast enough. However, I would be remiss in not noting that the toy I was offered for review was a little odd.

The Tri-It from Screaming O is weird looking one, this is just a fact. I pulled it out of the packaging and regarded the three beaded prongs with a strange mix of feelings: bewilderment, excitement and caution. Never have I approached a sex toy like it might be an exotic and potentially lethal bird that would look fabulous as it kicked me to death, but some how, I felt that way. The Tri-It looks like a makeup tool for fem aliens from beyond the stars more than it looks like a sex toy for human genitals, which only added to my fascination. Can a toy as strange looking as this feel good? Well…yes!

tri-it product photo 2

Looking at the instruction manual, the Tri-It – at least on paper – seems to check all the boxes for a successful toy. It’s rechargeable, waterproof, and covered in a thin skin of hot pink silicone. While I’m not the biggest fan of pink, the sheer brightness of it softens my heart. Neon pinks are better than pinks that try to look demure. The controls are similar to those of the Exposed Nocturnal, pressing for two seconds on any button to turn the toy on or off and navigating through the settings with short button clicks. I think a power button in addition to the scrolling buttons would be a welcome addition, but that’s a minor gripe.

The Tri-It has 10 steady functions and 10 patterns. Being the kind of person I am, I eschewed all the patterns in favor of the steady functions. The patterns are intense and a little jarring in fact, so if I wanna have an orgasm, I make sure to stay in the steady intensities. Positioning the beads to work for me was…a challenge. Actually I found it near impossible to get all the prongs to focus on it. My clit is hooded and VERY small, so mostly I just ended up pushing the main bead against my clit and letting the other two prongs do whatever. For some people, this will be a deal breaker. But even though I was disappointed that the prongs didn’t line up with my anatomy, the Tri-It saved itself through one particular feature.

This little alien lipstick looking vibrator is a GODDAMN POWERHOUSE. If this were a generator it would be Tony Stark’s Arc Reactor. I could (and have) had orgasms all day long just on the first four steady speeds. Paired with a good dildo, I orgasm hard enough to soak the bed spread under me and lose function in my legs. People who follow me on Twitter know that I used the Tri-It and the Splendid to orgasm myself into a stupor. It rivals the Nocturnal and perhaps even the Tango in power. Its single bead is extremely pin point, so precise and accurate that my clit can’t hope to escape the vibrations. My internal structures are pleased from the power of this as well, as the vibration quality is a pleasant medium between buzzy and rumbly. At times I can be numbed, but it’s nowhere near the numbing effect of the Nocturnal.

Bloggers are an important element in the field of sexuality and sex toys. They provide honest opinions on toys, forthright information on safety and a good laugh when we need it. Countess Kassandra is one of those bloggers who has decided to up the standard of sex toys by only selling things in her Erotique she would personally want to use, which is an admirable thing. While I found the Tri-It to be an odd bird, I still really enjoy it and don’t hesitate to recommend it for people looking for a slightly cheaper alternative to the Tango. And if you want to support me while checking out, use code ROCKETGIRL which will kick back a small percentage to me at no extra cost to you!

This product was sent to me free of charge in exchange for my honest review. Thanks Countess Kassandra! YA NAILED THIS ONE.

Reviews

A Beginner’s Attempt at Trying an Enema

Anyone who’s interested in anal sex has heard about enemas. Most anal sex guides will tell you that you’re pretty much fine if you have a bowel movement 30 minutes to an hour before hand that you’ll be fine, but that the more nervous crowd might find comfort in an enema. However, in most of these anal sex guides, there aren’t descriptions of how to do an enema or a description of what the recipient might feel. And I, an intrepid soul, saw that niche and decided to fill it. I would catalog my first enema and display it to you, my adoring readers.

Anyway, this is for everyone out there in the anal amateur leagues who are curious what it feels like to clean themselves out.

Over the holiday break I received an email from a company called Aussie Healthco. This is a company I mentioned in my Christmas Wishlist because I saw an enema kit there that looked like it was worth trying. In this fateful email, they offered to send me a sample kit that included both their enema bag and bulb kit for my honest review. Being the kind of person I am (impulsive and excitable) I leapt at the chance. A few more emails and a few days later, I received the Premium Purity Non-Toxic Transparent Silicone Enema Bag Kit and the Clear and Cleanable 7oz Enema Bulb Anal Douche Kit. These names are SUPER LONG so I’m just gonna refer to them as the enema and the bulb.

aussie health co product photo — The enema bag in question. Fancy eh?

The bulb isn’t really anything special apart from the stainless steel tip. Now this I like quite a bit as sterilizable material is always good when you’re doing something internal, and especially when it’s anal. However, it generally feels like another anal bulb I tried a while ago. Lying on my back, I gently inserted the tip, squeezed the bulb and was rewarded with a whoosh of water in my ass. The sensation was fine, nothing notable either pleasure or pain-wise. I wish the bulb were also silicone so that I could dump the whole thing in a pot and boil it but that’s the case for many enema bulbs on the market. In short? This is like many others, but the clear aspect is kind of neat so it’s worth doing. Also, the ad copy on the website is a little interesting. The website uses the term ‘opaquely clear’ which is…not how we use the language. It’s clear what the website intended to convey, which is the translucency of the material, but it is an odd way to do it. Might I gently suggest a copy editor?

The real highlight of the afternoon was the enema bag. OH BOY. I struggled with this thing like NOBODY’S BUSINESS. First there was sanitizing it in boiling water, and struggling to clean the tubing and then slowly learning how to put the thing together. It took the better part of an hour to do this. Suffice to say? Read the instruction manual. It is invaluable.

It took several tries to get the enema bag to co-operate with me. First of all, filling the enema bag was a little tricky. It might be easier with a bucket, but as all I had was a sink, I made do. I held open the silicone bag, filled it with water and…then all the water came squirting out the other end, spraying wildly. Cussing viciously, I threw the spraying end in the bath tub. After adjusting the clamp, who’s design I dislike, I finally managed to lube the tip and get it into my ass. Then, releasing the clamp I felt water flood my guts nigh instantly. I lay on my back, knees on my chest and panting like I was running a marathon because that water was filling me way too fast and my belly starting feeling cold and cramped. The desire to empty myself was close to INSTANT. In my opinion? The clamp ought to be easier to adjust. It operates via slotting in the edge to the grooves and using that to hold pressure against the tubing. HOWEVER. It isn’t adjustable to slowly decrease pressure. You can slowly increase it for sure, but sliding it back a setting is pretty damned impossible. Queue a long and difficult time in the bathroom. Also, lukewarm water might’ve helped, as I now realize cold water contributed to the discomfort.

Voiding myself felt very odd. It was all the sensation of having food poisoning without any of the typical nausea. My body still has memories of a bad brisket that I ate so PERHAPS there was some residual trepidation on my part there but otherwise it was fairly inoffensive. The only problems happened with the enema kit was with being unable to fill and control the water flow. That led to much unnecessary spraying of water all around my bathroom. And made me feel filthy. First time enema users, prepare to rinse off after. You might be like me and need a good rinse after using an enema.

In all, it seems like the enema will be a thing of practice. I’m willing to give another shot in a few weeks so that my gut flora will recover, but for now? Chalk this up as another wet and wild Liz misadventure.

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Rocket Girl’s Tips for Surviving Anxiety

There’s no easy way to talk about the details of anxiety. It can be nasty and embarrassing to talk about. For some of us, anxiety makes us bite our nails, makes us too anxious to move or shower, and can even prompt GI distress in the worst kind of way. For me, my anxiety makes it so that my appetite turns off…completely. Given a stressful enough event, my appetite can be turned off for a few days at time even. With my body producing cortisol and with no food or rest from anxiety, the effects of stress can wreak unadulterated havoc on my body. Fortunately, I’m slowly learning to deal with the effects of stress and I’m passing on my tips to you.

When you can’t eat, something is better than nothing: Listen, if you feel anxiety like this, full meals might not be in the cards for a while. Especially balanced and healthy ones. You might not have the energy to cook a full meal. However, nutrition is important and at this point, eat anything your body wants/will accept. At this point, you’re just looking for calories. Candy, fast food, anything is on the table so long as you can get something down so you can get your strength back.
Stay hydrated: In the grips of an anxiety spell, try very hard to stay hydrated even while your eating is out of whack. Water and herbal teas are best because they won’t dehydrate you, but anything will suffice so long as your having plenty of it. Not having fluids WILL make you feel worse, and as an added feature, peeing will feel REALLY uncomfortable because it’s more concentrated.
Practice whatever hygiene you can: Sometimes you just don’t want to go through the whole rigamarole of cleaning yourself. That’s fine! If you can put on some deodorant or splash your face then do it. If you can keep in the habit of brushing and flossing then you’re already on the right track. Your hair can be greasy. Your make up can be smeared or flaking off. But try to muster the strength to do little things like brush and floss to care for your health. I find that swishing mouthwash in my mouth helps when I can’t be bothered to uncap my toothpaste.
Slowly reintroduce food: If you go for a few days having eaten very little, don’t try and rush back into full meals. Breaking your calorie intake in a bunch of small meals will make it easier on your stomach. Pick some things you enjoy eating and have them in small amounts throughout the day to get your body used to eating again.
Exercise: I know, I know. It seems kind of ridiculous to suggest exercise again like it’s some kind of cure-all. But it has a lot of good effects and I really recommend even quick walks. It’ll help your body feel better by producing endorphins and I find that it regulates my appetite.
Get a screen dimmer app: Anxiety can make it hard to sleep. What can aggravate this even more is the blue light from screens. One way to help with this is getting something like F.lux that dims your screen as the sun goes down. It saves your eyes and has helped me go to bed earlier because the orange light is a) ugly b) doesn’t strain my eyes and c) doesn’t trick my body into wakefulness.
Journal: Writing can help you process your feelings. By confronting your feelings on the page, you can sort of kick start the recovery process. I’m not saying that it’ll always help, but a private space where you can scream and be dramatic without getting any of the neighbors upset is incredibly therapeutic for me.

I’ve been in the grips of a bad spell lately, and I’ve just managed to dig myself out thanks to the love and support of my friends and family. With love and patience, I’ve been able to get the gumption to post again and I’m extremely grateful for that. And also? Happy New Year! LOOKING FORWARD TO MORE OF ME?! CAUSE I AM.